Oh boy another old pen and ink comic from the Amanda I was in the year 2003! Back when I had boundless, unstructured creative energy that I find uncomfortable and horrifying nowadays. But I had a goal of making two posts on sneer campaign this week, so here we are.
Speaking of goals, self-improvement over a lifetime seems to be a positive goal and a necessary step in achieving that is self-reflection by looking at one’s own past — don’t dwell in it!! Just look back there from time to time so that you can feel that sense of relief that comes with the awareness that oh thank god I’m quieter now. I’m really glad that I am not looking back on real life videos of myself because what if my personality matched these comics oh god what if it did?? Shudder.
Still, I wouldn’t be where or how I am today if I wasn’t where and how I was then. In a way, I admire Pastmanda for bravely creating drawn nonsense that had an target audience of one single person (myself). I’m too considerate for that now. If indeed the manic comedy of yesteryear is still inside of me, I don’t particularly want to inflict it on anyone. I mean, except for now, in these nostalgic posts. But this is a twenty year old antique comic! It’s historical at this point!
Oh no… Just like that, I have become a Sorrowful Head of a different type. : (
I chose this one today because it perplexed me more than made me wince and feel ashamed. These 2003 era comics in my three ring binder are often so chaotic, filled from edge to edge with information that make it difficult to follow sequentially. What a big rookie error! What a buffoon! This is maybe the first one I did that I allowed there to be white spaces — if only a little.
I’m almost proud of you, Lil’ Amanda. You were making strides in November of 2003.